dissociative identity disorder
Schizophrenia and dissociative identity disorder are two different mental disorders that people always mistaken. Schizophrenia is a mental disorders that involve delusions, hallucinations and maladaptive functioning skills whereas dissociative identity disorder is multiple distinct personalities in one body meaning the person will show different personalities towards different people and will have different sets of memories. So channel 8 shows always talk about split personality as Schizophrenia which is wrong because the correct term should be dissociative identity disorder.
ok i also don't know why i want to talk about that...perhaps i was thinking about the different personalities i have in me. How well do i know myself? i guess very well that i can even list out the different levels of my identities that i showcase to people.
The reason why i wanted to start a blog besides capturing the memories i have, i know deep down inside i wanted to share my thoughts and feelings about issues and problems...but somehow i couldn;t really bring myself to do that..to pent down my true feelings or troubles i am facing...some of my friends can really blog about how they feel and what's happening to them or blog about displeasure reg someone etc... i wanted to do it...but still my heart stops me from doing it.. is it due to not enough trust i have in my friends? or simply i am just someone who keeps all my heartfelt thoughs and worries in my heart...i really do appreciate a listening ear and a comforting shoulder...many of times i felt lonely even when surrounded by a crowd of friends and i question myself how many true friends i have now...or who treats me as their true friend? sometimes i cry to myself under my pillow...but i know no matter how upset i'm, how many obstacles i face in my life, i will be able to conquer it and feel strong all over again...i forget grudges easily and forgive very easily...just that i like to repress all the unhappiness into my unconsious mind and forget about it. I will always remember the good and kind things my family and friends did for me and the thought of repaying it never leave my mind.
i remembered that in primary sch i am always bullied by teachers and classmates who thought i am easily pick on...in secondary sch being laughed at by schoolmates who thought i am a nerd and look like a nerd too. Well, i guess i survived though all these shit and emerged a stronger person. Along the way, some friends only come to me for help and advices when they need it and happily forget when i need them too. Spread unpleasant stuffs about me and thought i won;t mind about it. yes, my anger and sadness will last for short while and the reason why i can still continue to talk to them is because i still treat them as friends. I hate the notion of hating someone because it's so tiring and unnecessarily.
ok, that's enough of this emo-ish blog. i guess i am really feeling bored lazing around in this perfect sunny afternoon eating my dragonfruit...cos just read pq's blog and felt "inspired" to blog sth...still i didn;t manage to blog all my thoughts and feelings. how i wish i can say it all out. sigh.
p/s: i am seriously feeling OK and nothing bad is happening to me now, it;s just that sometimes the feelings just surge up and make me feel emo, it must be the serotonin or dopamine imbalance in me. =)
ok i also don't know why i want to talk about that...perhaps i was thinking about the different personalities i have in me. How well do i know myself? i guess very well that i can even list out the different levels of my identities that i showcase to people.
The reason why i wanted to start a blog besides capturing the memories i have, i know deep down inside i wanted to share my thoughts and feelings about issues and problems...but somehow i couldn;t really bring myself to do that..to pent down my true feelings or troubles i am facing...some of my friends can really blog about how they feel and what's happening to them or blog about displeasure reg someone etc... i wanted to do it...but still my heart stops me from doing it.. is it due to not enough trust i have in my friends? or simply i am just someone who keeps all my heartfelt thoughs and worries in my heart...i really do appreciate a listening ear and a comforting shoulder...many of times i felt lonely even when surrounded by a crowd of friends and i question myself how many true friends i have now...or who treats me as their true friend? sometimes i cry to myself under my pillow...but i know no matter how upset i'm, how many obstacles i face in my life, i will be able to conquer it and feel strong all over again...i forget grudges easily and forgive very easily...just that i like to repress all the unhappiness into my unconsious mind and forget about it. I will always remember the good and kind things my family and friends did for me and the thought of repaying it never leave my mind.
i remembered that in primary sch i am always bullied by teachers and classmates who thought i am easily pick on...in secondary sch being laughed at by schoolmates who thought i am a nerd and look like a nerd too. Well, i guess i survived though all these shit and emerged a stronger person. Along the way, some friends only come to me for help and advices when they need it and happily forget when i need them too. Spread unpleasant stuffs about me and thought i won;t mind about it. yes, my anger and sadness will last for short while and the reason why i can still continue to talk to them is because i still treat them as friends. I hate the notion of hating someone because it's so tiring and unnecessarily.
ok, that's enough of this emo-ish blog. i guess i am really feeling bored lazing around in this perfect sunny afternoon eating my dragonfruit...cos just read pq's blog and felt "inspired" to blog sth...still i didn;t manage to blog all my thoughts and feelings. how i wish i can say it all out. sigh.
p/s: i am seriously feeling OK and nothing bad is happening to me now, it;s just that sometimes the feelings just surge up and make me feel emo, it must be the serotonin or dopamine imbalance in me. =)