space

it is just spending time away surrounded by books, worksheets, files and laptop.
Perhaps wasting time trying to push forward and let time flies past me quickly.
Is this really my life?
One of the worst feelings you can get is just an empty mind
and so tired that you are a zombie when sitting on the bus way back home.
You can't feel the spark of excitement
or the tiny bubble of happiness.
Neither you feel angry, nor peace in your heart.
You are void of any emotions.
Just emptiness.
Which is so scary.
You can't smile and you can't even cry it out.
You just lie down on your bed at the end of the day,
no hope, no dreams, nothing.
You asked a question, " why?" and you realised there is only deafening silence.
Are you living or are you a walking corpse doing routines?