Let it go

Honestly, I didn't even really know where I found the courage. All I remembered was just seeing the doctor and sign the documents. Next, I was wheeled into the surgery room. It seemed so surreal and it was unplanned. Well, now I'm resting at home and I was happy that I finally got rid of the giant cyst that has been growing on my scalp for like 14 years?! This operation has cost me a bomb and not covered by insurance. This is the most expensive birthday present that I have gotten for myself so far. I guess I did not have much time to be fearful and to hesitate. It is because once I let this chance go, I will regret it again. Therefore, I am a brave and decisive girl! Somehow after this incident, I felt more relaxed? Hopefully this new-found courage of mine will take me to new heights. It has been a great year though there were many many downs but I managed to overcome it and stop procrastinating over it. It has come to my attention that I have consciously stop caring for things that I do not like or simply not worth my time doing it. Sometimes, I don't even bother about it because I felt I was taken for granted. I was really hoping for more money and faster promotion...but then I realized that I have decided to let nature takes its course and have more time for myself and do things that I enjoy doing it. I have decided not to care too much about others or even view things in a bigger picture...Why do I have to save the others time and time again and the best part was they were ignorant and ungrateful about it? So I'm learning to let go of things and take a chill pill. That's about it, my reflection after my operation.