It hurts.

It really did and still do affect me mentally and emotionally.
I begin to have doubts about myself and wondering about my future paths.
What should I do?
It seems that being kind and thinking for others is so wrong?
People are taking it for granted.
It seems like being cruel is actually the smart move?
I am taking people's words too seriously and in the end suffering because of the trust I have in people.
Why? Isn't this world make up of different characters and personality?
Why do we have to pretend and put up a false front?
I really don't understand why I have to change myself or make myself to be so fake to others?
Is it wrong to be different or dare to be different?
Do all humans talk so tactfully that they go around the bush and hoping that you understand. Even worse was that they talk behind your back?
I may be 29 this year. I realized as I get older and experienced more things, why do people get even more complicated and I have to deal with all this nonsense?
Seriously, I am on the verge of giving up and let it all crash and burn. Why care so much when people don't even appreciate it???
Don't blame me for being cruel because I have enough of this shit.