I got the grit...and i know it

I don't know how i am going to manage all these and the pile of marking keep stacking. I have lost count the times i have fallen asleep while marking and i cannot remember the last time i have smiled and laugh happily.  I dreaded to move constantly and rush through many things and make endless decisions. I am not happy and i know it deep down this is not easy and i feel like taking a break. I can't really give up because i am not one that give up easily. My conscience does not allow me to do so. That's why i have got that extra grit and i trained my mind to be more disciplined. I have already put in my best and i am not afraid anymore. Why should i even allow people to step over me or take advantage of my kindness? I am angry and i have to do something. Let the gossip and negativity go pass me and not affect me. As i overcome all these, it gives me strength and motivation to push forward.