Lose

Perhaps i will lose everything.
Perhaps it seems like i don't really care anymore.
After climbing towards the top,
I fell and dropped.
I will just laugh at myself.
This is Life.
It won't be going smoothly at all for me.
Perhaps no one will really care about me.
Losing people along the way
i begin to accept it as part and parcel of my life.
Depressed, disheartened, discouraged.
No matter how negative the things are,
no matter how down i am.
I will just sleep.
I have to be independent.
I got to be strong.
I am forced to be able to endure and stomach all of it.
It is tough.
I got to handle it myself.
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Force to build a shield around me.
And you all know that i am not that strong at all.