Sometimes...
Sometimes do you ever feel this way too?
sometimes i wish i could just give up and heck care about everything
sometimes i hope for a little piece of heaven where i can really rest and relax
in this concrete jungle and realistic world,
all of it are forcing me to hang on...
hanging on to a dangling string...feeling so weak and vulnerable...
i can't change my surroundings, lest to say the world..
but society is changing me changing MY world MY space
i hate the feeling of being restrained being controlled
like a plastic bag over my head. SUFFOCATING.
Sometimes efforts have to be made to keep things running well
results, grades, friendships, relationships, LIFE
frustration, depression, sorrow, tears all start pouring in
and felt it was one of the worst day ever in your life
efforts efforts efforts all need time, patience and energy and even money
can't i take a break and let my world revolve around me and care for myself for once
sometimes i wish i am more daring and try new things
i wish i am more independent but loneliness scare the shit out of me
sometimes when i know someone or something is drifting away from me, i really want to try to pull it back and make it goes well again but...my mind and heart is feeling so weak
sometimes all sort of weird ideas start to develop in my mind, should i implement them?
i wish for more happiness in my life now. suddenly i felt so powerless and keep struggling in dark water.
* this entry was inspired by the fact that my FYP is driving me to nuts again and also bothered by other incidents thats happening in my life now. actually i am most bothered by my fyp and after receiving email from my fyp tutor always send me in fits of depression. i hope i can ban her email manz. sometimes when in sadness, everything will start pouring into your mind and feelings will start to explode and spill out. maybe is THAT time of the month and life, which you start wondering what the F**K you are doing with your life now instead of some other more useful thing.
sometimes i wish i could just give up and heck care about everything
sometimes i hope for a little piece of heaven where i can really rest and relax
in this concrete jungle and realistic world,
all of it are forcing me to hang on...
hanging on to a dangling string...feeling so weak and vulnerable...
i can't change my surroundings, lest to say the world..
but society is changing me changing MY world MY space
i hate the feeling of being restrained being controlled
like a plastic bag over my head. SUFFOCATING.
Sometimes efforts have to be made to keep things running well
results, grades, friendships, relationships, LIFE
frustration, depression, sorrow, tears all start pouring in
and felt it was one of the worst day ever in your life
efforts efforts efforts all need time, patience and energy and even money
can't i take a break and let my world revolve around me and care for myself for once
sometimes i wish i am more daring and try new things
i wish i am more independent but loneliness scare the shit out of me
sometimes when i know someone or something is drifting away from me, i really want to try to pull it back and make it goes well again but...my mind and heart is feeling so weak
sometimes all sort of weird ideas start to develop in my mind, should i implement them?
i wish for more happiness in my life now. suddenly i felt so powerless and keep struggling in dark water.
* this entry was inspired by the fact that my FYP is driving me to nuts again and also bothered by other incidents thats happening in my life now. actually i am most bothered by my fyp and after receiving email from my fyp tutor always send me in fits of depression. i hope i can ban her email manz. sometimes when in sadness, everything will start pouring into your mind and feelings will start to explode and spill out. maybe is THAT time of the month and life, which you start wondering what the F**K you are doing with your life now instead of some other more useful thing.